I cannot feel a goddamn thing besidesmy fucking tingling legs and tingling heart.My body is numb, deadened from abuseinspired by the years of the abuse.I cough up new fluids every day. But hey,they let me know I’m stillalive. Cough cough up all the stuff in mylungs but hope thestuff deeper down stays down because I lostthe mop.I cannot feel a goddamn thing, besides. Continue reading Not Feeling Today
And everything fades and keeps fading and will keep fading and this never ends. It just sinks another level lower. Just another bruise I find in the morning that Heaven doesn’t know where it came from because there’s no light left. There’s an unending darkness confronting me at every sign of a return. This is only month three and it’s only getting worse and I … Continue reading Month Three
The world was so wide, so great, and so realyou could reach right out and touch it. You couldfeel rain, taste sweet, admire the greatness.Perhaps all good things must fall intooblivion. Annihilationforever inevitable, sotake one shot so the world gets a bit smaller. Take one more as dreamsbecome the better half oflife. So small becomes the world.Walls close in. The ends ofthe Earth come into … Continue reading The World Cannot Stay Big
