I cannot feel a goddamn thing besides
my fucking tingling legs and tingling heart.
My body is numb, deadened from abuse
inspired by the years of the abuse.
I cough up new fluids every day. But hey,
they let me know I'm still
alive. Cough cough up all the stuff in my
lungs but hope the
stuff deeper down stays down because I lost
I cannot feel a goddamn thing, besides.